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I am Saint Francis of Nevada….

Published February 17, 2011 by MrsQwnBee

WOW!!! Did you see that? Time FLEW!!!!  Now we’re in a New Year–2011. Holy Moley!  It’s only mid-February and already, it has been quite  year!

Last Summer, we adopted a stray cat, we now affectionately call Jet (named after all the Fighter Jets that fly over our house). 3 weeks ago, we adopted yet another stray–this time a teeny tiny 3 year old Chihuahua we named Sweet Pea.

She is a true Sweet Pea. Totally NOT the typical Chihuahua–mellow, calm, happy, not aggressive, not a barker either–but sadly, after having her checked at the Vet for a microchip (there was none) and again when she needed to be re-hydrated, she is a Little Girl that has a lot of health problems. The Vet came back after checking her out and he had “The Look.”

I was well aware of the sliding kneecaps (Luxating Patella) common to Chihuahuas.

I wasn’t ready for what I heard next.  She has a heart murmur–a bad one. A 5 out of 6.  I was in tears at the Vet.  I cried for 4 days straight–worried sick, scared and praying for her to be OK.  We don’t have the $3k just to fix her knees, and certainly not what may be wrong with her heart (she can’t even get her teeth cleaned because they’re not sure she would survive the anesthesia). So all we can really do, is give her a home with a HUGE abundance of Love coming from every person in this house–and in fact, anyone that visits!!!

Then when I had to take her back in (she got very sick a few days later), the Doctor found that she has not only 2 bum legs, but 3. Her front leg has a problem, probably from taking on all the weight from the back legs that hurt to use.

Oh Boy.

So she follows me everywhere–with her crazy little hyper wiggly walk! To the bathroom, outside, in the kitchen to my bedroom–EVERYWHERE. But even though I get up and down A LOT–I don’t mind. My goal and my honor is to give as much Love as I can to one of God’s many creatures.

As most of you may know, I am VERY VERY soft hearted. I couldn’t turn away from anything that needed me–especially when a pair of big brown eyes looked up at me (she had a strangle-hold on my heartstrings). Things happen for a reason. She found us to get the love and care that maybe she hadn’t felt in a long time. It is my honor and privilege to care for her.  The idea tears me apart of her silly little excited walk not being here.  But we are here to enjoy every minute while she is here with us!

Our other cats (which are the size of large Moose in comparison to her 4.5 pound self) have done fine with her. They come up to sniff her, but that’s it. She’s so much tinier than they are–which I’m sure made the difference.

But we are not rich, wealthy, loaded or independently wealthy via a deceased relative–we’re very average–but our heart sets us apart. We do the “Poor Man’s” version for her–LOVE. That’s all we can afford–but Love is FREE.

But the reason we found her (well she found us) is there are Foreclosures RAMPANT in this state and this area. People just leave their pets. Just leave. Walk away.

How sick is that? There are shelters, adoption centers even Petsmart takes in animals to be adopted.  That’s how we got our cat last Summer (just left to rot in the horrible heat here) and this year, that’s how we got our dog.

What the hell is wrong with people? How could anyone just leave a poor, little helpless animal out in the cold, to starve and try to fend for themselves–especially ones with health issues???

It sickens me that someone could be so cold and callous to a helpless creature. They trust us. They need us to help them and be advocates for them. And you turn your back on that?

Ugh.

If you’re going to lose your house and can’t take your pet for whatever reason, take it to a shelter, Petsmart or find it a good home. Don’t just wait for some sap like me and HOPE it gets taken care of.  There are so many people, now especially, that would turn their backs too.  But not me, not us. Not on our watch!

This is just one day out of our crazy life! But I really hope it inspired you to take some kind of action, take heart for the smaller beings in this world, and open your eyes and maybe your heart to something that needs love.

We did. And haven’t looked back…..

This is her!!!

 

Addendum:

A little over a year later, Sweet Pea is still with us. She still isn’t very mobile and wiggle walks, but we give her a little baby aspirin every morning to help her get around in less discomfort.

A few months ago, her face swelled up and she was in pain. I took her in, only to find that she had an abscess, her teeth really needing to be cleaned and 1 tooth needing to be pulled out. I didn’t know what to do. I knew that if we tried to sedate her to clean her teeth and remove the tooth, she’s have to be knocked out, and that would probably end her little life.  So we took an X-ray to see what her heart looked like.

When the X-ray was checked by the Vet and another radiologist, it was found that she just had a large heart. No traces of congestive heart failure, blood being washed back into the lungs were found whatsoever!!!  She just has a big heart for her body!!!  The valves are OK and the feeling of a heavy heartbeat on her left side had diminished significantly!!!!!

OH THANK GOD!!!!!   So it looks like we have several more years with her after all!!!  Let this also be a testament as to what love and care can really do….

Does this mean I’m getting old?

Published May 25, 2010 by MrsQwnBee

Hey There.

I got to admit, I’m kinda having a downer of a day.

My older son is going to be graduating Kindergarten later this week. I remember when I was younger and in school, I couldn’t wait to be done with the school year. But as an adult, it’s a whole other story.

I don’t do well with goodbyes. I cry at funeral scenes in MOVIES. In Avatar, I cried 5 times, and totally came unglued when she rescued him. But I’m a mush. A certifiable mush–and I wouldn’t have it any other way. It’s the Secret to being me.

So I’m on the verge of tears today, and I don’t really know why. Too many emotions I guess.

I have to say goodbye to my sons teacher soon–and it kills me. She has given me hope, understanding, laughter and the kindness in her heart. She has helped my son grow, talk more, be social more and really blossom this year, for which I am forever thankful for.    And because of the kindness she has shown for my son, wanting the best for him, protecting him when she can–I want to give her a gift of thanks–from my heart.

These days, school for my kids touches me, in ways I never expected they would.

My younger son starts Speech assistance next year too. I will have 1 son in full time 1st grade, and the other, part time in school too. I never thought that would happen. But that means my “little guy” is growing older too.

Now add to that–my daughter is graduating high school in June.  Soon, she will be an adult, on her own and going through life’s ups and downs. (I hope there won’t be many downs).  Her graduating is a big thing–it means she’s growing, getting older and the rumor is that I too, am getting older. (Everyone I’ve met recently still thinks I look 17 or 18–so I’m safe).  But “your little babies” aren’t babies anymore. They’re growing up.

I just read a great blog from my friend Chris. And he attached a video clip about Love and Paying it all forward. I got teary eyed again. 

But life is all about living, growing, loving and caring.  So instead of throwing myself a Pity Party, and this being all about me–I want to give something to you.

Life is not so scary, when you have distractions. Caring for others, passing on a kind word–whether it’s a smile or well wishes–it doesn’t matter. Pay it forward.

I could easily “give up the ghost,” turn off the computer and shut myself down. But I think when we really feel the most confused, upset or sad–we need to turn to others. Help them. Motivate them, Inspire them, Pay Attention to them, Listen to them.

And the funny things is–by changing your focus from yourself and your problems, to others and being a Light and a Beacon for them–it rubs off on you, and suddenly, you find that your inspiration towards others, has actually inspired you as well!

This was passed to me earlier this week. And I want to share it with you as well. I need some uplifting–so I’m going to uplift all of you instead! Funny how that works isn’t it?? Giving part of yourself away actually makes you feel fuller! (You gotta love the logic in that one!)

Pay it Forward.  Give something Back.  Believe in yourself. Believe that whatever you can conceive, you can achieve! Even if it’s your own personal dare to make that crusty old Scrooge crack a smile–then do it!

The world is your oyster! Today will be your BEST DAY Ever!!!

Live, Laugh, Love. Another 3 simple words to live by!  And thank you my friends–just by writing this, you have all made me feel better! So my thanks go to you!!!

THANK YOU!!!!!

Now enjoy this! You deserve it! —

What a Comeback!!!!

Published May 20, 2010 by MrsQwnBee

 

Hello Again!

I know I’ve only been blogging for a teeny tiny bit–but I think it’s time I share something with you.

I was hesitant to announce this to the world, because really, it’s NOT AT ALL my intention to get sympathy. It’s just from the heart and the real deal.

I’m really not saying this to try to get sympathy or even friends (but I do LOVE new friends, so catch me on Facebook–mrsqueenbee).

It’s just simply the absolute and total truth.

So here it is. My own personal “scoop” (and you’ll see why that’s funny as you read on).

Now, we are all trying so hard to make our businesses soar. Try this, try that.  We all have big dreams for us, our family, our way of life. But in 1995, I almost didn’t have a life.

I had brain surgery. I was 22 years old, and after that day, September 22, 1995, my whole life’s slate was wiped clean. Everything was turned upside down. I died on the table 3 times. but each time, I came back.

I was in the ICU for a week, followed by another week in the hospital.  But finally I got to come home.

I was right handed for everything–eating, putting on my makeup, brushing my teeth, shaving–you name it, I did it with my right hand. That was all gone in the blink of an eye.

I couldn’t hardly stand up and my balance was so awful I needed a nurse to help me walk in a walker.  It was really pathetic. I was a young 22 year old Mom of a 2 year old, but I felt like I was 80 and crippled. It was so disheartening, I don’t even have the words (and I’m a jabberjaw–so you know it must be bad!).

I knew my own name and the names of family members, but I couldn’t remember anything of my life before that day. (Thank goodness for pictures!). All gone. Nothing. Blank.

My vision was blurry and I couldn’t really taste anything. All I could do is  stare  and sleep. I had trouble even completing a statement. It was exhausting just to try to speak.  I was truly living the life of a zombie.

But I came back.

It took me 2 and a half years to learn to write left handed.  I was a recreational league hockey goalie briefly and I even learned to drive a stick shift car! Pretty Cool huh?

But I came back!

I got divorced thru all of this–but I was privileged to marry the man of my dreams, my Superglue for everything. (He would even come to visit his “dearest friend” on his days off from work, and walk with me, hand in hand, around the block because I couldn’t do it by myself.)

What a great comeback that was!

Now fast forward to now.  We’ve been married almost 11 years and have 2 sons. My daughter (then 2) will be graduating High School this June!

I came back to lead a great life filled with lots of love and daily challenges! (With 2 boys, how could you not?)  I have always dreamed of giving back what I’ve been so blessed to receive unconditionally–from so many.

I want to retire my husband from his Corporate America job –that is my goal! I want for him to be able to walk in and fire his boss!!! He will–eventually!  But wouldn’t you love to stage a huge comeback like that too?

I dealt with the cards I was given. I did it, and that’s all there is to it. I’m no hero, not a person to  admire–just a Mom and a Wife. My family is my #1 priority to me.

To me, this whole part of my life is History. It came, it happened, we’re done, now move on.  So I really don’t dwell on it at all (and thanks to the ice cream scooper in my head, my short term memory is not that great anymore, so I don’t think about it very often).

What this whole experience did for me, was that it has given me hope. It makes me remember to laugh and find amusement in the little things in life. I pay attention and I notice those everyday miracles–because now I am one of them.

The statistics for people that have survived their brain surgeries is staggering. I didn’t know this until recently, and it takes my breath away. Only 30% manage to live for 5 more years!  Talk about bleak? Holy Cow!!!

Well, then my husband (yes, you read that right–BOTH of us) and I have kicked that stat in the head!!! (Hee Hee!) Mine is going on 15 years and his is going to be 12 this year!

So do I think of myself as a miracle? No. Do I think about where I came from and what obstacles I faced and won against? Sometimes. But not too often. Like I said–my family is my priority. My business comes next. Me? That can go on the back burner. But I do get a pretty good laugh when people say “Well it’s not brain surgery to figure this out.”

My sense of humor has kept me going, and always will.  I try to be as positive as I can, because every day I’m alive, really is a miracle–if those stats were correct.

But this journey called LIFE, that we’ve all embarked on is going to be a great comeback for all of us!  It’s like a good book–you can’t  put it down!  I can’t wait to see what happens!

The future is so bright! Just remember to Keep on Keepin’ On, Pay Attention, and Love the fact that you’re alive. Every day matters! Big or small.

If you were touched by this, please share it with others in need or just share the inspiration! Feel free to comment, and to friend me on Facebook. I wrote a special note that talks even more about this and I’d love to pass it on.

Thank you for reading!

Best of Luck to ALL of us!

For the “whole” story, tune into my Facebook page–MrsQwnbee–it’s there under the “Notes” and it’s called “By Popular Demand.”